i've met maly a few times before.� she's wearing --of all things-- a
pinstriped suit and a feather boa.� she is generous, and
invites me to a party she's throwing in a few weeks.� there aren't many
people at the edinburgh on this particular evening, but they're all dressed
really well.� hardly anyone dances, though.� she tries to get me to
dance.� to no avail.
after nearly everyone leaves, sarah and i dance around for a while.� i'd
asked sarah earlier to hold onto my glass for a
while.� when it was returned to me, its contents had diminished and its rim
had lipstick all over it.� perhaps for the best.� we go for a drive and she sounds as if she'll
throw a tantrum if she doesn't get to hear teenage fanclub for the fifty
millionth time.� fortunately bandwagonesque (taped over a prerecorded john
wesley harding cassette "because he's just not that good") is a mutual
favorite of ours.� we spend the rest of the night sitting on maly's floor,
talking and listening to saint etienne.
i have a vague hope.� for something profound to happen.� for a
revelation to come to me.� for meaning to just emerge out of ether.�
for more than waiting for the next party.� this night has not opened my
eyes.� it isn't so bad, anyway.