"there comes a time when you have to question why you're staying in, why you're not happy, what you're a martyr for, and what british band is to blame."
-- m.grace jr.

eggstone2000: what does your mood ring say today?
whiteschmao: um... sorta down, but i think it'll be going up.
eggstone2000: aw. damn morrissey. how many lives must he ruin before he is fully satisfied!!� ;(
whiteschmao: hahaha. seriously.

i guess i'm goin' out tonight with some old palz.� then to sacramento tomorrow on a little "road trip" with some old palz that are not quite as old as tonight's old palz.� then to sacramento again on monday to spend labor day with some old palz that live there.� i'm sooooooo on the go.� i couldn't decide whether i wanted butterscotch pudding or diet pepsi, so i got both out of the fridge and i'm having them one after the other.� yay.� have been obsessing over my favorite, the past couple days.� my dangerous friend, washing up on the beach at 3am, walking these streets like two filmless film stars, they won't read your biography these men they will only break your heart.� am so fickle and can't decide whether i really want to be around this person or that person or go out or stay in.� not really sure if i have a few crushes at the moment, or actually none at all.� the easiest thing seems to be just staying up late at night playing video games, sleeping a lot in the daytime, and trying to not think of things like that. i must admit that i do care very much for my friends and look forward to seeing them, but it's embarrassing to be so moody because there's no good reason for it at all.� screw this john hughes teen angst crap and identifying with molly ringwald or ducky or whoev.� seriously.� can't spend the rest of my life worrying about whether people really care, will i be "stood up" over & over by every friend i ever have, will gaining a couple pounds push me over the line into complete unlovability, where is my life really going after school stops being an easy cover for my massive fuck-uppery, etc.� screw it.� it sucks and i rock.� and damn morrissey for what he's done to an entire generation.� i mean, god bless the smiths for several albums worth of awesome music, but damn them for the emotional damage they've probably wreaked on thousands of teenagers over the years.

theo van doesburg rules.� definitely.