lately when i'm in my car i'm on a nostalgia trip with killing joke and it's
so hardcore the way it snaps back & forth between its soothing new wave synths,
epileptic gang of four art school guitars, lazy spooky dub bass and filthy
bludgeoning led zeppelin heavy metal drums. why aren't they a household
name? i don't understand. when i'm sitting at home, i listen to
billy joel, cyndi lauper and for christ's sake the doobie brothers... all this
stuff i woulda dismissed as such unchallenging garbage when i was younger then
one day in the supermarket or the shoe store you hear the song that makes
you realize just how good he or she or they were and how they are similar to
something else that you always loved and now you are privy to a great secret
that all your friends are too snobby to see 'cause they swore just like you that
they'd never be caught dead listening to piano rock or torch songs or any of
that geezer bullshit.
my day-to-day life has gotten so bereft of any emotion that i
get teary-eyed while watching movies now. even the really stupid funny
ones, during the scenes that aren't supposed to be sad. jennifer aniston
eating a granola bar that she just dropped on the ground? here come the
waterworks, i'm positively choked up. my sleep has gone ballistic. i
wake up mumbling obscenities leftover from a dream that i've had a huge fight
with a distant relative. i wake up to catch myself actually spitting in
bed, from having a dream that i've spat in someone's face after she said "but my
dog is a good dog" while her doberman is trying to chew my hand off.
what is going on??? is it some kind of inevitable compensation for the
dullness of the weary world awake and too much time spent submersed in ape
escape & gradius v punctuated by spontaneous fits of hopping around for no apparent reason?